"Fear not, I am with thee...." My hair is thinning.....

Sunday September 6th, 2014.
     Last Friday night mark and I went out to dinner for our anniversary, which was on the 2nd (33 years ago). We went to City Creek and had a good time. We took pictures because I still had my hair and of course our anniversary.
Saturday I noticed I had a thinner amount of hair in front by my bangs. When I went to chemo last Monday, Mark came with me. I was asking the nurse how I would notice that my hair was going to fall out. She told me that most people say that their hair hurts. Huh? Usually it’s your head that hurts I didn't know that hair had nerves and feelings...later Saturday night the back of my head hurt but it was weird because it really didn't feel like my head, it felt like my hair that was hurting??? It was just below my crown and only lasted about 5-10 minutes, and then it was gone. WEIRD! My head has been really itchy all week and more so this weekend so I think it will start coming out fairly soon. My days for nausea are day (2) and day (3) in the evenings... then it slowly goes away and then I feel better just in time to start over again. This week I get the (2) meds. Not looking forward to it because it’s supposed to be a bad week when I have (2) meds. I have a test this week also! Ughh!

Sunday September 7th, 2014.
     Went to our regional conference today and one of the songs we sang struck that cord again and I started to tear up and couldn't finish singing the song. It was "How Firm A Foundation" The words that hit me most were as follows in green (I will make a link so you can hear it also);                         Mormon Tabernacle Choir- How Firm a Foundation
 

        How firm a foundation, ye Saints of the Lord,

        Is laid for your faith in his excellent word!

        What more can he say than to you he hath said,

        Who unto the Savior, who unto the Savior,

        Who unto the Savior for refuge have fled?

        In ev'ry condition--in sickness, in health,

        In poverty's vale or abounding in wealth,

        At home or abroad, on the land or the sea--

        As thy days may demand, as thy days may demand,

        As thy days may demand, so thy succor shall be.

        Fear not, I am with thee; oh, be not dismayed,

        For I am thy God and will still give thee aid.

        I'll strengthen thee, help thee, and cause thee to stand,

        Upheld by my righteous, upheld by my righteous,

        Upheld by my righteous, omnipotent hand.

        When through the deep waters I call thee to go,

        The rivers of sorrow shall not thee o'erflow,

        For I will be with thee, thy troubles to bless,

        And sanctify to thee, and sanctify to thee,

        And sanctify to thee thy deepest distress.

Sunday still; I noticed throughout the day that my hair had thinned quite a bit, not enough for most people to notice, but it hasn’t come out in chunks yet…a little nervous to lose my hair (even though I know it will grow back). I can see hair on my shirt or pants and I just pick it off. The texture of my hair is courser, like I need more conditioner even though I put it on already. My head is itchy and I want to scratch it but I'm afraid if I do the hair might be scratched off as well. Right now mentally and emotionally I'm doing good. The nausea is a pain but so far I can put up with it, we'll see how this week goes.