Wednesday, February 18, 2015

Getting Braver.....

     Well I think I might be getting more brave going out without my wig on :). I went to the grocery store by myself with just a hat on-no stares, at least ones that I was aware of. Most of the time at home I just go bald or wear my bandanna. If someone comes to the door I quickly throw on a hat or bandanna. The other night someone came by the door, Austin answered it and said it was for me, so I came to the door and was just talking with this person (he wasn't looking at me weird or anything). We were carrying on a conversation when all of the sudden I realized I hadn't put on a hat or my bandanna. Oops! I was ok though, it didn't bug me. Usually its only close friends and family that I have let see me bald. I realized it was ok, that is who I am right now. That was a huge step for me to realize. Mark and I decided to run to the store, I didn't have my wig on cause I'd been home all day, so I just grabbed my Disney cap and put it on to go to the store. I told Mark to watch for people staring at me but neither of us really noticed any staring. Some people just smiled, others looked and then went on with there business. Even the pharmacy staff didn't bat an eye and they usually see me with my wig.
     

Most of the time my wig isn't hot, the thing that bugs me the most about my wig is, it gets tangled underneath and then starts sticking out like a rats nest on the sides... I did email my wig guy and gave him tons of suggestions and told him I was ready for my other wig anytime. I told him I wanted to show him some ideas on how to cut the wig better. I tried washing the underneath hair on the wig with moisturizing shampoo and conditioner but it took the color out from the colored mousse I used to color it with, so I will have to re-color it and use permanent color. I have also tried lots of leave on conditioner as well. It still gets tangled....

Wednesday, February 4, 2015

Reflections....Cancer.net....

Reflections (taken from http://www.cancer.net)

The end of treatment can be a time to look forward to
the future. New rituals and new beginnings can bring a
sense of relief and joy. It may also be a time of physical
and emotional change.
Now that treatment is over, try to take time to get
back in tune with yourself. Allow healing time for
you and your family members and caregivers. Think
about what you can do to begin living without cancer
as a main focus.
Whether good or bad, life-changing situations often
give people the chance to grow, learn, and appreciate
what’s important to them.
Many people with cancer describe their experience
as a journey. It’s not necessarily a journey they would
have chosen for themselves.
But it sometimes presents the opportunity to look at
things in a different way.